LoA'in next stage. letting the energy do the job. love.

Visualise. How f. Hard can that be?
How much delay has the Time still need to fill.. in this lovely life game?
Did I not mention hard enough: name, birth, eye colour, aura in particular?
Come on moon, wake up.

(..that day when time slaps you in the face with LoA truth. Attracting birthdates, and kids names.)

Dream, Nik, just dream.

labeling people

I came with a frame of mind.

and ma stradui sa o modelez in asa fel incat sa o iubesc in fiecare zi.

cand faci algoritmica pe organisme vii, ar fi bine sa fii pregatit sa reactioneze intr'un mod pe care nu l-ai anticipat. Ce sa vezi, sunt vii.

Labeling people is not a strength i have.

pentru ca eticheta te ajuta sa decizi daca atunci cand cumperi un produs iti asumi si riscurile impachetate in el.

Dar, e funny, in lumea in care toata lumea poate face psihoterapie cu ceilalti, sa vezi cum se eticheteaza oamenii din cadrul mai larg sau mai restrans al propriei perceptii despre viata.

Era o vreme cand toata lumea stia fotbal. Politice. Macroeconomie. Acu.. toata lumea face psihoterapie pe ceilalti. LOL. 

Cum ar fi sa ne descoperim fiecare talentul si sa cultivam ceea ce ne face unici si speciali in lumea asta? 

Dar.. sa punem etichete oamenilor zic. Asa.. ca de 2015.

walls falling down

Being straightforward may damage your image, but will always keep your spine intact.

Because once a vertebrate, always one.

When tired, the walls fall down. And it vibrates to my soul so hard that I can picture the place. Again and again as the first time I saw it. Never knew what to do with it.

Someplace Rome, near the Colliseum, lies an old gothic church with an old torn apart garden. You need me to draw it out? But after passing the iron doors (iron, so ironic for a blood desease, roght?), the land unfolds into someplace Magic. From the future from where the Time bends the future with the eternity of our souls. Whispering, that is.. "Come. Follow me. It's time."

As I follow, I feel i get lost in the magic of your dream of me. Because the world is still, the time is still, and the only presence around is your breathing. Do you even know you do that when tired? If when tired, than what about willingly while wide awake? And then, why do I wonder why I fell you lingering on my skin when our auras meet by accident?

Wide awake remembering.

dreaming into 2015

Ending of an era. A bad one. 

Anything that comes my way, can only be better that the last 2 years.

Facem si noi niste rezolutii pt 2015, Sascha?

I know, pt tine 2015, 2016, or any other year, will be perfect as long as you can sleep carelessly next to me.

Si pt mine, la fel.

I've said it before: thank you 2014 for bringing sascha, and the others in my life.

Dear 2015, te rog, nu lasa cararea galbena prafuita si ajuta-ma sa fac pasii de care am nevoie pentru aducerea visului in realitate, complet. Asa cum stim noi ca e el. Everytime.

Cu pasi mici, alergand, sarind peste piatra cubica, dar mereu in miscare, te rog. Daca se poate in zbor. As in: repara'mi 2015 aripa lovita, sa pot zbura. 

Dreaming into 2015.

nameless lie

respect, royalty, magic.

in this lifetime, i chose to inspire.

to do that i need to trust. the moon, with all myself.

having trust issues is not part of my lifestile. so, if lies are flowing freely on your lifestream, go find someone who you can mingle your lies with. my time is limited.

i don't care who you are, whoever you are, doesn't stand a chance with all the lies.

how can you dream excellence when you life is based on deceivment?

well..seen this before. not an issue.

playing suits is not for everyone, harvey & mike are trustworthy. 

PS: when the lies will start hurting, remember, you crossed a line you shouldn't have.

Rudolfing..

Dear Rudolf,

maine, maine, iti pregatesc de mancare si te astept.
azi doar am pregatit cadourile. :) ca sa iti fie mai usor.

voiam ceva.. dar am lasat plicul acasa.. il gasesti tu acolo si il citesti pana vin inapoi.
anyway, in the Magic, i need to thank you, for finally making it stop.
Printre stele, vindecare, infuzie de speranta, thank you for all that happened this year.
It's been a hard year. Looking back, I can't say which one was harder, 2013 or 2014th, but still, I'm glad is over.

thank you for bringing Sascha into my life. another form of cloud, but, always here ready to measure my emotions and to set them straight. Ieri, nu voia sa plece de acasa. stim de ce nu voia. dar, Time will surely tell us both if it was worthed. i'd never imagined he'll just lighten up my aura this brigth, patching in the night, the wounds the light of day made on every feather.

thank you for my P.E.T. (personal emotional trainer). even though growing apart, when times are bad, he'll always be here to heal the parts of the aura, that need more strength than sascha has. pentru ca marimea conteaza cand intizi oase.

thank you for meeting the kids. in a life full of smart objectives and mean people, thank you for bringing them close to me this real, this year.

thank you for breaking the chains. the best days of the last 3 years, that i feel freed, and i know that noone, ever, will be able to chain my wings like that, for any. f. reason. i'm not sure that the one that broke them can see it, as he is right now too busy doubting the reasons of my existence and appearence in his life.
maybe it's time :) ? as in: "come, follow me, it's time" ?

thank you for not breaking my dream. and for bringing it real, near to me. so close. too damn close.

thank you for helping me move.

and for running 2 SM's.

and for resisting another year to the madness of the f. fee.

for keeping me sane.

for keeping me safe from harm.

for validating the bloodline.

for all.

thank you for the proof that mind rules over matter, anytime. but love rules them all.

so, for Xmas, dear Rudolf, can you please talk to Mr Time for me, and tell him I'm ready to receive my gift?

nik.

reading of the year, at last

let's do some reading today.
e de bine.

the power of feedback, zice ca cine vrea sa stie din viitor, si ma intreaba, ar fi bine sa-mi spuna, dupa ce trece viitorul daca e cum am zis eu.
the power of feedback, zice ca i can empower positive, nomatter the feelings, pentru ca, din 13 stele cu potential, daca tot ne-am intalnit, sigur cel putin 3 sunt critice.
in doing so, when i say: "wear red for the meeting", "make the deal today", "speak your mind", "bear the moon, and forgive her"... ar fi bine sa imi dati feedback, sa stiu, for the next time, what the priorities are :) !

and then, again, when in trouble, my aries feel, chiar daca ai spune ca aparent berbecutzii nu simt. oh da, si inca cum. ai mei da. thanks God, there are aries in my life.

altfel cum de nu m-as fi speriat de opozitia asta, when i need flesh and peace and vision?
dar o stiu atat de bine... fiind ea din capitolul: opposites attract, Sun-Moon, Venus-Mars.
cum sa nu o simt in varful cozii, cand stim atat de clar ca I shine bright because I love Mars, although I decided to be born on that Magical friday!

in etapa in care sensitivity is expanding around me, stiu, de la prima vedere care sunt motivele pentru care imi plac unii oameni. si altii nu. cand Soarele il vede clar pe celalalt, si nu il intelege pentru ca il intriga, Luna a ales sa se aseze exact in Descendent. For life cum ar veni.
when I have a healing ascendant i Hate (ca si cum nu ar fi evident ca am mai multa grija de cei din jur in loc sa am de mine..) , you do have a fishy Moon, you hate, but you just decided to be born at the moment she was crossing my descendant. or have I made that choice?

well, don't hate the moon, for she rules over the sky at night, and the sun loves her so.
and i need mine to shine.

pentru ca Leii, s-au nascut pe lumea asta ca sa conduca jungla. we have that skill.
pentru ca Scorpiile, s-au nascut pe lumea asta, ca sa o transforme. we have that skill also.
pentru ca, thank god, cand stelele tale s-a asezat pe cer si te-au hotarat sa apari, au stiut, ca pe cerul lumii mele exista doar 11 zodii. si s-au asezat exact acolo unde trebuie ca sa poti fi ceea ce esti azi.

learning things the hard way.

pentru ca nu intalnim oameni by accident.

pentru ca ai ales sa apari in lume, aducand cu tine, all the passed karma. being out of your conform zone.. but all the good things are out there. expand the confort zone, will you?
i promise to grow wings in return. :) !